Sunday, July 21, 2013
It’s Hotter in Texas
Nine months ago, I left this blog with short spirits and a weakening attitude towards life. The bitter chill of New York was weighing heavily on me, and everywhere I turned was a new emotional obstacle…
The toughest decision I had to make was leaving New York. Wrong.
The toughest decision I had to make was leaving my friends. I met a small handful of individuals with such unique personalities, witty lifestyles, and the biggest hearts. Everyone was a character with their own personal worlds from which they came. No one was the same. We were all different. And we all loved each other’s company.
In the end, I had to do what was best for me, and I was blessed to be surrounded by friends who were supportive of that. The move back to Texas was for spiritual healing and, in short, for rest…
It’s hotter in Texas. Since my return in March, I’ve worked a retail position at a Hobby Lobby, and rehearsed a title role for Second Baptist’s VBS! I am now looking forward to strong potential work on cinematography and film editing with my brother and one of his co-workers, as well as some filming for a web series directed by my High School theatre instructor, C.J. Brock.
Life has proven to be quite crooked and surprisingly unpredictable. Just when we think we’ve got everything settled in one season, the summer heat blows in and forces us to relocate. The battle I face is one with pride. I must constantly remind myself that God’s plans for me are made for the long run and are never based on temporary satisfaction. I’m back!
Wednesday, October 17, 2012
One Year Later
It is one year later, since Gilroy was produced and featured near Times Square…
And I am a different person, for better or for worse.
School is done. Life is now in session. Reality is kicking in at last and the symptoms include depression, drowsiness, bodily aches, and low self-esteem.
Where do I go from here? What progress is there to be had?
I return to this blog after deactivating my Facebook account. I cannot be apart of a digital world anymore that prides itself on meaningless posts about Lady Gaga or who’s doing what in sports, or the simple fact that someone’s car broke down. All I want to say to these people is nobody cares.
There are more important things. I’m telling you now.
My faith has weakened. My mind is frail. I am currently seeking a therapist here in the city for consultation. I am twenty-one years old, and I feel like I am seventy. Something is wrong.
My subconscious is surfacing. My addictions, my weaknesses, my fears… I hardly know who I really am anymore. My passions have diminished severely.
When I created this blog, it was to document the good times as well as the bad times. This is surely the worst time for me. All I can say is there is work to be done on my spirit. Meanwhile, here are some photos…
And I am a different person, for better or for worse.
School is done. Life is now in session. Reality is kicking in at last and the symptoms include depression, drowsiness, bodily aches, and low self-esteem.
Where do I go from here? What progress is there to be had?
I return to this blog after deactivating my Facebook account. I cannot be apart of a digital world anymore that prides itself on meaningless posts about Lady Gaga or who’s doing what in sports, or the simple fact that someone’s car broke down. All I want to say to these people is nobody cares.
There are more important things. I’m telling you now.
My faith has weakened. My mind is frail. I am currently seeking a therapist here in the city for consultation. I am twenty-one years old, and I feel like I am seventy. Something is wrong.
My subconscious is surfacing. My addictions, my weaknesses, my fears… I hardly know who I really am anymore. My passions have diminished severely.
When I created this blog, it was to document the good times as well as the bad times. This is surely the worst time for me. All I can say is there is work to be done on my spirit. Meanwhile, here are some photos…
Wednesday, November 9, 2011
Thursday, October 27, 2011
Saturday, August 27, 2011
Wednesday, July 27, 2011
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