One Year Later

It is one year later, since Gilroy was produced and featured near Times Square…

And I am a different person, for better or for worse.

School is done.  Life is now in session.  Reality is kicking in at last and the symptoms include depression, drowsiness, bodily aches, and low self-esteem.

Where do I go from here?  What progress is there to be had?

I return to this blog after deactivating my Facebook account.  I cannot be apart of a digital world anymore that prides itself on meaningless posts about Lady Gaga or who’s doing what in sports, or the simple fact that someone’s car broke down.  All I want to say to these people is nobody cares.

There are more important things.  I’m telling you now.

My faith has weakened.  My mind is frail.  I am currently seeking a therapist here in the city for consultation.  I am twenty-one years old, and I feel like I am seventy.  Something is wrong.

My subconscious is surfacing.  My addictions, my weaknesses, my fears…  I hardly know who I really am anymore.  My passions have diminished severely.

When I created this blog, it was to document the good times as well as the bad times.  This is surely the worst time for me.  All I can say is there is work to be done on my spirit.  Meanwhile, here are some photos…

Three Weeks To Go!

The Legos Return!!

Hercules!

The man himself. The Kevin Sorbo. The Hercules.

Irene 1

First Trip to Coney Island

Gil, Mahesh (Mark), Myself, John and Crystal

Another Neville Creature

Hello again! Got another post here - more ZBrush stuff!

This design, like the “tree-dweller” creature, also belongs to Neville Page and is featured as the ‘sketch’ in the tutorial I mentioned. His process of sculpting it was truly an inspiration to watch, and… of course… I simply HAD to sculpt it myself. This isn’t precisely the design, there are a few areas where I took the liberty of adding my own creativity to the piece, such as the joints of the knees being inverted.

And, as a little treat, this is a video of the rendering process I mentioned earlier. It’s a little long, running at about seven minutes, so I don’t blame you if you don’t have the time at the moment… But watch it later! :)